January 2010
2009.
Overall, 2009 was a damn good year for me. I made already existing friendships so much stronger. I started working for my producer. I met so many amazing musicians and became friends with many of them. I got my name out there. Oh yeah, and you changed my life.
Let’s hope that 2010 will be even better.
December 2009
The Mortician’s Daughter by Black Veil Brides = Current obsession.
I’ve never been perfect, but neither have you.
http://www.formspring.me/amandabearpig →
Go there and ask me ANYTHING you want.
“Dear AmandaBearPig, today I saw a gorgeous girl who made me think to myself,...”
– Dear Denzel, you made my day when you said that, just so you know. You’re pretty much amazing :).
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R.I.P. James "The Rev" Sullivan.
I am seriously speechless. Avenged Sevenfold has always been one of my favorite bands. And Jimmy is one of the most incredibly talented drummers I have ever seen. He was only 28. This is unbelievable to me.
All I can say is that he will forever be remember through his music. And he will most definitely be missed.
R.I.P. The Rev.
:(((<3
This shit isn’t worth it anymore. I mean it is(it always will be), but it gets harder every time. Wait until I ask you that question, I know you won’t tell me the fucking truth. I know the truth, and I know you don’t have enough guts to tell me.
I am officially going to disappear. Starting today. Don’t try to get ahold of me, you’ll fail. Anyone.
I’m done.
“I swear, if I could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall, then...”
Hmph.
So it’s nearly 2010. Crazy, huh? I don’t remember October or November at all, due to the fact that I was extremely sick. This year just doesn’t feel complete yet. Although one amazing thing happened to me. Or should I say, one amazing person. I will forever be thankful.
Christmas was pretty good. I got too many things, as usual. But I am so thankful for everything I got....
Merry Christmas!
davidvaughn:
“Do you remember the night when the sky was so dark and the moon shone so bright? When a million small children pretending to sleep nearly didn’t have Christmas at all, so to speak?” And would you, if you could, turn that mighty clock back to that long, fateful night, now think carefully, Jack. Would you do the whole thing all over again, knowing what you know now, knowing what...
“The best way is not to fight it, just go. Don’t be trying all the time to fix...”
One more thing,
Last night, I ended up getting picked up from the show in my dad’s cop car. He got called out to a crash and he couldn’t take me home.
I ended up sitting less than ten feet away from a dead woman. She wasn’t covered up at all. Her head was smashed in, there was stuff leaking from her ears, and pretty much all of her bones were crushed. Awesome, right?
Anyways, as I was sitting...
Is this just another distraction?
Woo, new hair.
I spent the weekend with Sabrina, after going seven months without seeing her. That was fun.
And I finally got to see Cody after a few months. I am so excited he’s back in San Diego to stay. Until he goes on tour in a week. Ha. :(
That’s all.
P.S. I really miss you.
Twitter isn’t working. It’s making me sad.
Got my hair cut and colored again today. The color looks pretty good. Black and white, like I wanted. But now there is more white. The only thing is, she cut it REALLY short. Way too short for me :(.
I don’t like my life right now. I really want to disappear.
I thought I was going to finally be happy.
Looks like I was wrong.
Don’t talk to me if you’re just going to use me. That will just make me dislike you greatly.
A year and a half later, and I still don't believe...
“To all of those who mean the world to me, Don’t be sad or upset by what I’m about to do. My life here, was short but beautiful. I don’t blame anyone, but myself. My heart, my mind, my everything is growing weaker, every time I look at that clock I see it. I see my life amounting to something that would have been great, but sadly I’m ending...
Perfection. This is one of my best friend’s...
You know I do it like a pornstar.
So I googled my name. And apparently there is a pornstar named Amanda English, too. Ha. But the cool part is that my Twitter comes up on the second page, and my Myspace comes up on the third. Pretty awesome, if you ask me. My hair is red, white, and black at the moment. It will stay that way until Thursday. I don’t even care. Whatever.
I get to see both my best best friend who I...
God damnit.
I guess you could say that I’m blonde again.
fml.
I'll be your safe ride home, when you call me.
I wish I could go here, and sit on the end of this dock.
I’m finally going to be blonde again. I have been waiting too long, and I am so excited.
Today sucked. It definitely did not go as planned, but on the bright side, I bought a new flannel and it makes me look cute.
Oh, and I got the best letter ever in the mail today. It was from my producer. Inside, was a $100...
I guess that this could be the start of something...
…possibly something beautiful? I’m not getting my hopes up.
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My heart skipped a beat, er more like multiple beats, when I saw your name. Only to fall and shatter a few minutes later. :(
This is probably the best, not to mention the...
I’m just going to live in a dream.
I really just want to disappear. At least for awhile, if not for good. I can’t change this situation, and I feel like crap because of it. Honestly, living captainized and scared with Allura sounds pretty damn good right now. We’d be carefree, that’s for sure. It’s funny how...
Loving every second of it, we just walk away.
Look how beautiful it is.
I found this camera today. It’s a 35mm Yashica Electro 35 that was made in 1966. It was my mom’s camera in High School, and it is in absolute perfect condition. It takes absolutely amazing photos. I have not been this excited about something in a long time. This will definitely hold me over long...
I'm not going to bend. I'm not going to break.
Let the world go. Last night, I realized a few things. I realized that I won’t leave a friend alone when they need me most, I’ll hold them up and do everything possible to make sure that they don’t fall. I realized that I need to stop worrying so damn much, and just live. I realized that some people just...